[He may not have experienced the same horrors. But he knows what it is like to experience something traumatic that stays with you. He thinks, with time, he's become fairly adept at pushing it all down.
When every other day might toss you into a traumatic situation, at some point, while the pain and trauma doesn't disappear, you learn to just... be. Which isn't to say he hasn't had plenty of breakdowns himself. That it doesn't still happen. But right now, he can at least be the person who is there for someone else.]
Imeeji... was like that too. From one day to the next, it was impossible to say if you would be forced into one of their twisted ideas of a game. What they would do to you, or force you to do.
. . . We were just... amusements. Paraded around like favorite pets that they delighted in watching suffer. Ratings, you know.
[He cannot count the number of times he has died. The different times he has been tortured or humiliated. He is good at forcing some things from his mind. If he just doesn't think about it, then it's fine.
In fact... some memories were so traumatic, that his very friends had them wiped from him. He can't even recall them all. Only that they were enough it was deemed that he shouldn't ever linger again.
He draws a breath before his gaze hardens. He takes Mayoi's hand into his own.]
I am a Knight, Ayase-senpai, and also, a proud member of Avante en Garde. Though my powers have been stripped of me, I still retain the knowledge and strength that has been taught to me through numerous trials and hardships. I will protect you, and fight to see us home once more. I shall never give up on that, no matter how many battlefields we must cross.
[His free hand lifts as he reaches across the table to touch Mayoi within the center of his chest.]
And you... are a soldier. Knights and Soldiers are rather similar, if I may say so. While Alkaloid may still struggle to catch up to us Knights, I shall not allow a worthy opponent to fall before we have properly conquered them ourselves. Hold your head high. We are allies, right now, you and I. Take the time you need to adjust, and know that I will ensure your safety with my very life.
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[He may not have experienced the same horrors. But he knows what it is like to experience something traumatic that stays with you. He thinks, with time, he's become fairly adept at pushing it all down.
When every other day might toss you into a traumatic situation, at some point, while the pain and trauma doesn't disappear, you learn to just... be. Which isn't to say he hasn't had plenty of breakdowns himself. That it doesn't still happen. But right now, he can at least be the person who is there for someone else.]
Imeeji... was like that too. From one day to the next, it was impossible to say if you would be forced into one of their twisted ideas of a game. What they would do to you, or force you to do.
. . . We were just... amusements. Paraded around like favorite pets that they delighted in watching suffer. Ratings, you know.
[He cannot count the number of times he has died. The different times he has been tortured or humiliated. He is good at forcing some things from his mind. If he just doesn't think about it, then it's fine.
In fact... some memories were so traumatic, that his very friends had them wiped from him. He can't even recall them all. Only that they were enough it was deemed that he shouldn't ever linger again.
He draws a breath before his gaze hardens. He takes Mayoi's hand into his own.]
I am a Knight, Ayase-senpai, and also, a proud member of Avante en Garde. Though my powers have been stripped of me, I still retain the knowledge and strength that has been taught to me through numerous trials and hardships. I will protect you, and fight to see us home once more. I shall never give up on that, no matter how many battlefields we must cross.
[His free hand lifts as he reaches across the table to touch Mayoi within the center of his chest.]
And you... are a soldier. Knights and Soldiers are rather similar, if I may say so. While Alkaloid may still struggle to catch up to us Knights, I shall not allow a worthy opponent to fall before we have properly conquered them ourselves. Hold your head high. We are allies, right now, you and I. Take the time you need to adjust, and know that I will ensure your safety with my very life.